_*[[_____ im not perfect. - but neither are you (: //*`_________________

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

ppingz's best friend is Anqi! says:
who sae u are a nobody?
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
haha
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
i love ur nick~
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
aww..
ppingz's best friend is Anqi! says:
yea man!
ppingz's best friend is Anqi! says:
haha
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
i'm so so touched..
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[*ping* ] says:
u'r making me luff lo
[ *ping* ] says:
aww
[ *ping* ] says:
i cant wait to c u
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
haha
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
dun too xiang wo
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
later u cant concentrate on ur studies
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
wahaha
[ *ping* ] says:
xiang ni xiang ni xiang si ni
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
*melt*
i'm juz a nobody to everybody.. says:
haha

一天内的两次感动。。。

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
10:28 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

Monday, October 24, 2005

i'm sick again.. =( =( =( sianz..

Went to collect my NPCC uniform ytd.. okie.. i'm seriously fatter now lo.. =( then i went for medical check up, and got a tetanus injection.. i guess tt's the reason y i'm running a fever now.. And my arm hurts..*boohoo*

It has been 4 days since i last saw u.. 人家说：“一日不见，如隔三秋" 已经过了十二个秋了。。。

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
12:00 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

Monday, October 17, 2005

Hmm.. Joining NUSNPCC.. Was super excited initially.. Then the excitement died down.. And now finally when it's time to collect uniform and taking the first step towards this cca, i'm having doubts..

Hmm.. Doubts bout whether i can make it thru all those trainings, doubts bout whether i will still enjoy being in tis cca, doubts on whether i can maintain my passion for it and doubts on whether i will make any frens and whether i can work well with them..

Haiz.. I rem i used to be a more confident person, but sumhow, the process of growing up has eroded my confidence.. Growing up is such a scary process.. I realise i'm not as happy as b4.. I used to be a cheerful ger hu laughed bout practically everything, who tok bout every single thing under the sun.. But now.. I prefer to sit back and observe, to soak into the atmosphere.. Though sumtimes the noisy me emerge in front of ppl closer to mi.. haha.. Juz feel tt i'm more careful bout things and i'm worryin more, thus more unhappy.. I guess tt's the side effect of growing up..

Hmm.. So should i join or shouldn't i?... Np is a part of my life which i cant ignore nor forget.. I guess not many ppl understand this feeling.. But to mi, it's sumthing so impt and the memories it left is so precious, the bonds it provided is still strong.. Recently, i dreamt of this Np event.. Haaz.. Inside the dream, there's only Joy and Jie but i knew clearly it was farewell nite and the dream was so vivid, it was as if the event juz happened ytd.. But in actual fact, i've already graduated for like 3 yrs le.. Hahaz..

Purple light, in the valley
This is where, i want to be,
With my dreams, close compainions,
With my CI, my buddy and Me~

Saturday, sibeh jia lat
ATC, is lagi worse,
everyday, doing training
With my CI, my buddy and me~

Going out, meet my boyfren
Saw him with another ger,
Brokenheart, back to Np
With my CI, my buddy and me~

ORD, back to studies,
got degree, very happy
Memories, back to NP
With my CI, my buddy and me~

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
11:53 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

My latest obsession~~

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
8:17 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

Congratulations and celebrations~!!~~~ Hahaha.. I'm so excited for jie lo!!! wahahaha.. He passed his driving!!! Woah~~~ Now he is a p-plate holder.. i cant help but feel so proud of him!! hahaha..

Ahem.. i got an announcement to make.. I'M OFFICIALLY IN LOVE WITH MING DAO!!! wahahah!!!~~~ Ming dao leh.. Ming dao so shuai lo!!! *Swoon* No dao ming si, ming dao also can lo!!!! Hahaha.. After ah xu, he's the nx guy whom i'm really crazy bout.. i get so excited thinking bout him everytime *blush* lol.. Even Rain doesnt have this effect lo!

Anyway, ytd was toking to my frens.. then i asked wat will happen if their idols die.. I say i will sink into a depression.. wahahaha.. exaggerated la! Then i was thinking to myself, wat will happen if my close ones die.. Hmm.. Somehow i always think bout ppl leaving mi.. I guess.. I'll really sink into depression.. really really.. Then i thought.. If in the first place, we noe that everyone will leave one day.. then y bother to build up all those relationships? And suffer the heartbreak? Hmm.. If in the first place, we dun form any bonds, any relationships, any form of reliance on anyone, then we wun have a chance to feel sad, to sink into depression cos of someone's departure.. But then again, we wun get to experience the happiness of being together and having fun =)

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
6:19 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

Sunday, October 09, 2005

I'M LIKE SUPER PISSED LO!!!!!

Argh!!!!! My stupid lappy broke down on me when i got an assignment due tml!!! Like wat the hell lo!! I dunno wat's the prob, but there's something wrong with the USB port!!! There's no response to wateva shit i plug in!!! Even the damn mouse!!!! ARGH!!!

Then i decided to transfer the doc to the PC thru floppy disc.. Guess wat?!! that damn T43 dont have a floppy drive!!! ok, i dunno much bout computers, but.. Y doesnt ot have a floppy drive?!!
Maybe i was so blind i didnt see it.. ARGH!!!

PISSED!!!!!!!!!!

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
10:12 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Juz ended my last tuition for Jie Ling ytd, cos today maths paper is her last paper.. Hmm.. mixed feelings.. Feeling sad cos sorta got used to her afetr seeing her for consecutively dunno how many weeks.. I actually enjoyed tuition sessions with her..Feeling happy, cos i walked with her thru her p6 yr, till PSLE.. Seeing her from everything-also-dunno, until knowing sumthings, until her teeling mi that today's paper is easy.. =) Hopefully she doesnt make any major mistakes and then she'll get good grades!=) She kept bugging mi to teach her in sec sch.. *touched*

For my other tuition kid... *headache* haha.. Cos his foundation is really poor and very diff to build up on a poor foundation.. For now, i can only move on slpwly while stregthening the foundation, hopefully it works.. But it's bugging mi that he hasnt shown much improvements.. Haiz... i'm expecting poor results for his exams..

I'm feeling as though my life is in place again.. =) I'm becoming more like mi.. Haha.. Cos today i actually had lunch with big grp of frens.. It has been ages.. Hahaz.. Though we r not a clique but at least now, we (lx and i) have more ppl to tok and laugh with... It such a funny and complicated web of frens.. Lx, Queen and mi are Jc-mates, ferene is pri sch mate, Val is ex-colleague, Mabel is Queen's Og mate and there's this ger hu is ferene's fren.. haha..

And Npcc is having their first outing!!! All new ppl.. Hmm.. wonder if i can make it.. Hopefully i'll have a great time.. And i'm excited over this arts open championship~~ I wanna play netball and captain's ball!!!! Been ages since i did.. Hopefully i can get enough ppl to form a team..

Jie's having his driving test soon.. Excited for him sia.. Haha.. Which reminds mi of mine..okie..

I FAILED!!!! with 34 demerit points.. hahaz..

I actually striked the curb at the least expected place!! When turning out of directional change into the main rd.. how stupid can i get?! hahaha.. It's so nerve-wrecking lo the driving test.. And the tester sit there like dua bei gong, keep coughing and coughing.. makein mi even more nervous.. Haha..

I'm gonna pass it on my 2nd attempt.. Wish mi luck though it's still a couple of weeks away.. Meanwhile~ Pray for Jie~~ Hehe..^^

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
3:04 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

Sunday, October 02, 2005

曲名：最想环游世界歌手：梁静茹

聊天是甜蜜的习惯

把心情都交换　一天才算完

简单是我要的浪漫

你语气有心疼　我就更勇敢

我今天　我明天最想环游的世界

就是你　最内心　的世界

我后天　大后天也不疲倦的想念

会是你　看着我　笑的眼

真爱　像一座秘密花园

随时有新的发现得到新的体验

两个人彼此挖掘再一起比对和回味

然后瞭解越深相爱越深　转眼就永远

你的背弯像片沙滩

既厚实又柔软　能给我心安

阳光在你心里灿烂从指间传递着　

总让我温暖远方像蜿蜒的海岸

从晨光到向晚　景色会变换

我们走过万水千山

辛酸会变答案　爱是归属感

我今天　我明天最想环游的世界

就是你　最内心　的世界

管阴天　管雨天我的心会是晴天

照亮你　多云的　那一面

许志安-这一秒你好不好

想你风就停了
刚好不迟不早
想你会在做什么呢
会不会也孤单呢

这一秒你好不好
希望你会微笑
有你我觉得我重
要我会努力成为你的骄傲

如果这一秒钟你想起我的笑容
那是同一秒钟你浮现我脑海中
如果当寂寞穿透思念是一种痛
亲爱的没有人比我懂

世界这一秒钟多少爱都已落空
庆幸这一秒钟我们仍心意互通言语
虽无法形容却真实的可以触碰
我的世界只为你转动

Dunno y.. but everytime i hear this two songs.. i'll think of ya..=)

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
10:50 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)