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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Skipped sch today =D =D But I was really poductive today. Apart from taking 2 naps and watching TV and playing computer, I actually got my lazy ass up and around to clean my room.. =D omg.. my rm is freaking dirty la.. It soooooooo much more cleaner now hehe.. Anyway, I found sumthing which ling zhong yan a.k.a JC civic tutor wrote for me b4 I graduated:

至亲爱的安琪：

不知道为什么我就是喜欢连名带姓的叫你—黄安琪。哈哈，总觉得这样叫你比较顺口、比较亲切。虽然有点没礼貌，但我知道你是不会介意的，哈哈。其实我也不是随便连名带姓叫我的学生的，所以从另一个角度而言，你还应该觉得荣幸，哈哈。说实话你真的是一个好可爱的学生。你的开朗、你的笑声，往往都能感染你身边的人，为他们带来无限的欢乐。当然你的话也很多，而且废话更多，哈哈，但这也是我最“欣赏”你的地方。我想，我会很想念你那独一无二，天下无双的笑声。

分离在即，只想对你说声-谢谢。谢谢你在这些日子以来为我带来无限的欢乐。有时心情不是那么好时，我庆幸能有你这样的一个学能旖旎的笑声冲淡我的忧愁。虽然有时你讲话是大声了一点，可能别人会觉得很烦，但我却不觉得，因为我会比你更大声，哈哈！

你是一个很聪明的女孩，华文程度也相当不错（不要太骄傲，我只是说“相当”，哈哈），未来若对华文还秉持这一份热忱的话，不妨朝这方面继续发展。说不定，你就是演艺界未来的那一颗闪亮星星，到时拿奖时可别忘了感谢我，哈哈！

好，现在说些认真的，你是个聪明的孩子，希望在未来的日子里，你能善加利用你的聪明，浩浩为自己开脱一条光明的道路。我希望、也坚信你的前途是光明的！

你的笑、你的无厘头，
常常为身边的人带来无限的欢乐。
希望在未来的日子里，
你能继续保有这份开朗、这份无忧，
继续为身旁的人带来欢乐!

艳
13．10．2004

Wa.. so tiring to type in Chinese man!!! Haha but I missed writing in Chinese though.. Finally got to see zhong yan jie last fri during jess 21st bday party. I miss her man!! And we had lots of fun toking on the top of the our and gossiping the night away haha.. She's getting married nx year!!! so happy that she found her xing fu ^^

It's as though we r from a ger's college.. haha if nt for young an..

Really like gers sch.. haha

To my right is pretty pretty zhong yan~~ <3

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
11:25 PM

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Friday, January 12, 2007

Hohoho.. i lost part of my entry again...... zzzzz.. dunno how tis stupid blogger works la.. anyway, it's been a loooooooooooooooooooooong time since i blogged la.. everytime i sign in blogger, type type a few sentence, gt a bit bored of tryin to make my sentences looked like it's written by an arts student then i gave up! haha.. so from now shall heck care la! no need write in perfect sentences, i jus wanna keep track of the things tt 's happening..

Okie.. so after the last irritating stressed up sem, i spent almost the whole of Dec with the NPCC ppl.. Started off with a very stressful Instructors' Prepartory Course where i was the only female and i gt a lot of unwanted attention from the trainer, esp in arms drill.. zzzzz Initally wanted to go down slack slack, sumtimes turn up to have fun, but suddenly, i became the IC for campfire, squad instructor and grp instructor.. And i turned up for most of the duration of HOBTC and surprisely, i WANTED to go.. nt tt i was being forced.. Reason being i made loads of frens.. okie, maybe not loads la.. haha.. lemme count.. ppl like yb,jy,irene, jing jie jie, sc. Eh.. 5 only leh.. haha.. But well, changed perceptions of quite a number of ppl, some for the better, some worst.. And the whole course sort of re-ignited my passion for the corps. hmm.. HP may be part ot the reason as well.. haha

Ho nite and games day followed after the course. and i'm getting an overdose of the NPCC ppl, well, i'm nt complaining.. In fact, i'm suffering from an hangover from HOBTC, whenever there's opportunity to see them, i'll get hyped up.. haha..

All the events in Dec changed my thinking quite a bit.. Hmm, realised tt one of my major flaw is tt once i bu shuang someone and a xin jie is formed, it will take mi a very long time to forgive and forget.. So i decided to change!!!! *proud of meself*

Difference with ah huey were resolved after like erm.. 2 yrs+.. It was really stupid of us and it was a pretty long time to ignore each other. but well, it's over. =)=)=) ooooooooooo i even attended dear ah huey's 21st bday party!!! hohoho.. she has such a lovely cake lar!!! i also wan!!

Second xin jie tt was da kai was wei wen.. And i took the initiative *proud proud* which i nv used to do.. I always thought taking the first step is so pai seh la.. but well, we had quite a nice tok and i told him wat was bothering mi.. Though now we weren't as close as b4. But well, at least no more ill feelings towards him le..
=)=)=)

Hmm, last xin jie with Joy still nt da kai la!!! Still feel awkward and still feel like I’m nt a wanted and desired fren.. BOOOOOOO!!! So childish.. =( nehmind, will try to settle it asap :D

Sch started le.. one month hol is seriously too short!! But well, happy to be back in sch seeing all the frens tt has been greatly missed for the whole month! Back to sch =back to hanging out with gers=no bullying!! Yay~~ haha.. I missed xiao qi, Li xiang, val , Claudia!!!!!!!!!!! And happy to see Ling!~~~ Hehez.. Bazaars shopping, gossiping, attending lect, printing notes!! Familiar routines again, but with familiar ppl tis time!! YAYNESS!!!

Oh ya, C broke up with her 5 yrs + bf and is out tog with last sem fellow project grp mates.. I hate seeing ppl break up!! Esp after long standing r/s… ARGH!!! It always get mi thinking thinking thinking la… hai..

On a happier note.. Went back to m’sia for my grandma’s 80th birthday.. Somehow, I always feel that time is running out and I’m nt doing enough to show my care and concern for the loved ones.. But it’s tiring.. so many loved ones, so many ppl I appreciates.. Time is passing too fast and at the same time where kids wan to grow up faster, the elders are growing older.. I dun wan.. I wan ah ma to see mi graduate, to approve of my bf, to see me get married and to play with my children la.. I always hated the fact that she’s so far away.. =( But well, tt visit I managed to pluck up my courage to touch her.. Though touching her or holding her hand is a very simple gesture, I always didn’t do it cos I was pai sei.. So it was a very long time since I had physical contact with her.. I accompanied her to the nearby market and while holding her, I felt how fragile she was.. It pained me to realized how time has changed and weakened her and I really really hope she has enough time to see me move on further in my life..

I saw cousins which I haven seen for at least 5 yrs and everyone has certainly changed a lot.. I have always loved being part of a big family.. =) but with grandma living so far away and everybody being busy with their own lives, it’s super duper diff to gather everyone tog..

Maternal side family had a gathering too!! New yrs eve at pasir ris park.. Hohoho.. So fun to have so many loved ones counting down tog.. had loads of fun with Giselle!!! She has grown up la!! And she calls mi yi yi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEHE!!!!!!!!!! So nice!!!! I love her ^^ took a lot of pics too!! I love family outings!!

The other day I was having soci of family lect and the lecturer posed a question to us. “Who do you consider family?” I think apart from my nuclear and extended family, there are 3 persons whom I include as family to me..

First one is Jie. After spending sooooo much time with him (I’m not complaining!!!) He’s the person I’m 101% comfortable to be with.. It’s nice to have a person to grow up with and to share every single little things with. And it’s nice to jus sit by the beach, enjoying the sea breeze and tok bout nitty gritty things. It’s nice to have someone’s shoulders to lean on during bus rides, to feel so comfortable with all hideous acts and not to be worried bout being judged.. Other than the fact tt he’s nt really known by my family, he’s a true blue family member of mine! ^^Oh! I like the way how our r/s has evolved to be.. we’re no longer quarreling over nitty gritty things and we r more receptive to each others’ opinions.. hehe.. NS has certainly changed a lot of things hor. Hehe.. Half a yr down! 1 and a half more to go…

Second one is Joy joy.. Hohoho.. almost 8 yrs of frenship.. Loads of up and downs.. though we r nt particularly close when it comes to sharing of problems, but there’s tis very comfy feeling with her.. She’s a dear to my family, esp to my mum, hu treats her like her daughter.. I love her grandma and her cousins.. and I love her.. She’s someone so close tt we can swop homes and we wun feel uneasy at all..

Lastly is gary.. hahahhahaa… weird.. he’s no longer like a fren le lar.. I kept thinking wat was the reason I consider him as a family member.. Hmm.. Comfortable toking to him and one thing I really love bout him is tt he nv judges me.. Even though I told him bout the evil things I did or the evil thoughts I have, he’s nv once (I hope) thought that I was an evil person.. It works both ways.. I nv thought he was stupid even though he took his A lvls so many time :P hahhaha.. And I’m always amazed by his thinking and the way he toked.. certainly nt like any other guys.. haha.. Even though I haven seen much of his frens, I noe the bulk of them by their names.. Same goes for him..

AnQi is one lucky lucky ger!! With a complete family and 3 extra members!! Hehe..

An Qi is lucky cos she has her frens too!!!!! But I’m slightly confused over hu’s frens and hu’s nt.. haha.. I rem telling wei wen tt I enjoyed HOBTC’06 cos I made quite some frens.. Even though I wasn’t part of the clique, but at the very least, I felt welcome.. HOBTC’05 was fun too.. But after the course, it sorta hurts to realize tt there’s a clique and I’m nt part of it.. But well, if we dun click, no point being part of the clique too.. haha..

HOBTC’06, I found some crappers and lamers and han nan rens.. =) Thanks yb for saying tt I’m included!!! So gan dong leh!!!!!! And Si Chao is so nice la!!! He drove mi home!!! Other than my dad and taxi drivers, he’s the first fren and first guy fren to drive mi all the way home!! Muahahahah.. SO NICE OF HIM~~

Okie, single gers like ah ping, queen and li xiang!! Come come come register k! I noe quite a number of hao nan rens., muahahhaha..

It’s getting real late.. time to slp lo~~~~~~~ hehe..

P/s: resolution for the new yr!: lose some fats, raise my cap and appreciate the loved ones more!

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
2:00 AM

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